RANDOM THOUGHTS

As I sit here all alone in my house, with no car to escape I face the fact that I am stranded- trapped. AND I LOVE IT!!! The dishes are clean- I mean ALL clean, everyone of them- for the first time since the kids took over the task. Why does it take two perfectly capable kids who are supposedly working together two hours to do ten minutes worth of work...well that is a different topic all together too involved to enter into my random thoughts right now.

Washing dishes gave me some time to think. I tried to sit down and make a blog entry after Christmas but was too distracted. Christmas did NOT go the way it was supposed to this year. None of our out of town family were able to get here due to the extreme weather and even out in town family called to say it was too dangerous to make the trek. Now, Dave has wanted it to be "just us" for a holiday- any holiday- for years and he finally got his wish. But he was so unhappy. He wasn't expecting it and I think he really got to appreciate how much family add to the day. At least I hope he did because I have no plans to do Christmas like that again. It was fine. Quiet, peaceful. But I love family gatherings and I really missed it. It didn't really feel like Christmas to me.

So, back to the present. I got on YouTube the other day and learned how to knit so I am really looking forward to doing a little of that tonight. But I certainly don't need to wait for everyone to leave in order to knit.

The secret is that while my family is away I am being reeeealy BAD! I fed them all the leftovers that were in the frige. And they were good. Chicken and rice dish with peanut sauce. Oh so yummy. No one seemed to notice that there wasn't enough for me and that I was not joining them. That was ok with me though because I was secretly weighing and eyeballing my options while they were eating. Would I have gourmet cheese and some soda? Or milk and cookies? I could do cereal. I have literally let me kids have cereal ONE time for dinner, in their entire lives. I know this is a great fall back for busy moms but I have never done it. And it was just the other day. I made a really big deal about how I have never done it before and will probably never do it again- blah, blah, blah. But when the family is gone I can do whatever I want and I AM in the mood to be naughty.

So it was Coffee and Cookies for dinner. Maybe the cheese will be my dessert.

As I wash dishes I let my mind wander. I often will slip into what I consider something close to meditation. I have had some of my most profound revelations washing dishes. Nothing like that tonight though. I did start thinking about how much I could accomplish in the three hours they will be gone and then started wondering how much I might accomplish if the kids had actually gone off to school like I had originally planned. When I started homeschooling Hannah Chloe was in first grade. When Chloe had been in Kindergarten for half days I had been planning the whole year how I would spend my days alone at home. That just never happened. I have no intention of sending the kids back to public school full time. I figure for now this works and I don't really NEED my house to be clean for anything too important for the next 11 years. It sure isn't the top of my priorities over well rounded, mature, moral kids.

Sooo...Now I lost my thought. Oh well, I am going to go read my favorite blog SQUANDERISM. I recommend it!